Sorry for the unannounced hiatus. I was on vacation for 2 weeks, and my parents didn't let me bring my computer with me. We did a lot of driving over our trip, which meant a lot of time for me to think. It also gave me a chance to revisit a book I read in 8th grade, Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom. I liked the book in 8th grade, but nothing really sunk in when I read it that first time. This time, after a few years, listening to the audiobook helped a lot to resonate with me. (I don't know why, but if I hear something someone says, it tends to stick with me better than if I read it off a page.) I just happened to be listening to Tuesdays with Morrie when it was getting close to (or on, I can't remember) the anniversary of Kara's diagnosis. A lot of the lessons Morrie taught Mitch reminded me of the lessons I learned through Mundane Faithfulness. I then wondered if Kara had read Tuesdays with Morrie since a lot of what they both taught were similar. (And in the words of Morrie, we're all Tuesday people ;) ) I guess I'll have to add asking her to my list of things to do once I get to Heaven.
A while ago at camp, something in my heart was telling me that God was calling me to do ministry right on PFQ. I've been talking with some people, and I think I'm am where I'm supposed to be. Everyone on PFQ has a little trainer card where they can post status updates, and when I see something like "Not in the best mood" or "Need someone to talk to" I try to step in and see if there's anything I can do to help. I've done that a few times already, and I tried to encourage people the best that I can (with the Holy Spirit's guidance, of course). I've been friends with someone on PFQ for a while, and even though he's younger than me, we're both similar in the fact that we both like to think big thoughts. He recently shared with me a truth he came to realize about something that was going on in his life, and when I read it, I was thankful that he had learned the lesson that he did before it was too late. Then as we kept talking, I realized that this was the kind of friendship I had been praying for all along. We get along pretty well, and we're able to share our hearts honestly with each other while having fun at the same time. For some reason, that made me think of the other things amazing things God has done in my heart and in my life recently, and I thought it would be a good idea to list the prayers of my heart and words of thanksgiving for what God's done in my life. I guess I should stop rambling and start.
Thank You God for...
~letting me be a part of PFQ's community and being salt and light to hurting hearts there.
~my friendships on PFQ, especially mine with SuperK1. Thank you for introducing me to someone who is fun to talk to, loves You, and is willing to think big thoughts about our faith with me.
~a wonderful vacation to Yellowstone. I loved getting to spend time with some of my closest church friends and enjoying the beauty of the national parks with them.
~reintroducing me to Tuesdays with Morrie. I'm glad I've matured so much spiritually since the first time I read it and was able to get so much from it as a result.
~introducing me to Kara. Even though I don't know her personally, she has taught me so much and has helped me go deeper into a relationship with You.
~letting me know that it's ok to cry. The pain cuts so deep some days that I can't help it. Kara has taught me that tears are evidence of knowing love, and even though she's in Heaven now, I still love her and miss her a ton.
~planting seeds of wanting to pour out big love onto people in my life before I met Kara and having her blog help guide me as I continually try to find more ways to show love to them.
~The kids at church. They're all a lot of fun, and I love growing in my faith and doing life with them.
Lord, I pray...
~ that SuperK1 and I would continue our friendship and that we may both mature spiritually as a result of our friendship
~for someone I know on PFQ. She recently had to let go of a loved one. Even though I know she's not a Christian, I pray that she may be able to experience Your grace in her life. I pray she may also know Your comfort and peace as she tries to find her footing in her new normal without the person she had to let go of.
~for Tabitha Mori's friend. I know that you are capable of healing her father. I pray that he makes a quick recovery and that her friend may experience You in the midst of her depression and be able to know just how much You love her. I pray that her family may be able to know Your comfort and Your peace as they walk through this hard.
~for all my church friends, especially my girlfriends. I pray as we grow older physically and mentally, we'll be able to grow in our faith as well. Authentic, godly community my heart's desire for us as we grow older together. I pray that will be possible even as we grow up and leave home to fulfill whatever You have planned for us in that new season of our lives.
~for Kara's community. I know they have settled into their new normal without her, but I know that hard days will come. I pray that they would be able to feel Your presence among them when their hearts are hurting.
Wow, that was long. Thanks for sticking with me through this long post~
I've been praying for this kind of friendship too, and I'm thankful that we met, and I wanted to say, I wasn't always willing to talk about the things we've been talking about. It started out as something I wouldn't talk about to anyone, and then I realized from other things that if I didn't tell anyone, and I kept feeling like it was a secret, that there was a lot of pressure on me, and I couldn't think straight, so I started telling you a little, and then I felt like we were friends, which normally I don't feel like people I only know from the internet aren't really my friends, so that made me feel great, because before then, I never really had any friends, and I always felt like I had so much restraint and I never had fun. Ever. So I felt like you were my only friend, and you felt really special to me, and I started feeling like I enjoyed telling you what used to be a secret between myself, and no one. I enjoyed telling you, and enjoyed listening to you, and it just felt amazing!
ReplyDeleteThanks you for sticking with me, even if we only know each other from the internet, and helping me get over things that I normally never would've gotten over.
-SuperK1